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Marla Singer


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a poem and a painting by Jody Coughlin

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I took a pill. It was a zinger.
But, I don’t care… I’m Marla Singer.
I’ll flick my ciggy in your face
And sell your clothes––to your disgrace.

I’ll screw your boyfriend until he’s dead.
I’ll drink poison and chew on lead.
I’ll wake at night to the sound of rain.
I’ll pretend my TB is causing pain.

I’ll suck my smoke until it bleeds.
I’ll suck your (beep) because I need.
I’ll never wash and never brush.
But, I’m still a sexy (beep)ing slut.

So, kiss me once, kiss me twice.
Then ignore that I’m your vice.
Carry on with your double life…
Perhaps I’ll stab you with a knife?

In a dream when you’re not looking
When the soap you are cooking.
I’ll stick it in––right through your mud.
Then, perhaps, I’ll lick the blood?

So, when you’re finished bashing heads,
I’ll be thrashing ‘round your bed.
With the other half who makes you you.
I’m Marla Singer. It’s what I do.

A Night of Television

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by Jody Coughlin

I watched Anderson Cooper’s AC 360 on CNN recently and I really don’t care what some people might say, I think he (Cooper) delivers some very decent, fair reporting laced with a refreshing amount of basic human compassion and common sense. He’s my kind of boy, that Mr. Cooper, and I have been watching his coverage of the earthquake in Haiti from the start.

One night in particular he reported on a story about a five year old boy who was rescued from the rubble in Haiti. I believe his name is Monley. Well, if you are following the story as I have been you would know that Monley was rescued after 8 days under the rubble with no food or water. Amazing. Yet, after he was reasonably back onto his feet he was sent from the makeshift hospital that took him in and into the world to live in a tent with his brothers and his uncle. A vacant look in his eyes said everything he didn’t seem to be able to say with words of his own as he was being filmed for the news story. Both his mom and dad died in the quake. The last I heard Monley did not know the truth about his parents. His uncle didn’t have the heart to tell him the truth about their demise. I don’t blame him. That would be a tough call by any stretch of the imagination.

Essentially, Monley’s recovery from dehydration and starvation came within days of proper care and treatment. The grief and sorrow and challenges ahead of this boy will not come nearly as easily and it will take years to work through the kind of pain and grief he will undoubtedly suffer as time goes on, I think to myself.

Then, I flipped the channel to CTV and there it was. The opening ceremony of the Winter Olympics in Vancouver. A source of national pride indeed. At first, I watched with a mild form of skepticism. There were girls dressed in what looked like white, space-suit mini skirts, carrying the various banners that stated the names of all the various countries as they marched around. Not bad, I guess. Well… Then again. Never mind. Back to CNN.

This time, on CNN, the story was about a girl who had to have surgery to remove chunks of cement from her brain. She had spent her recovery in what she thought was a hospital in the United States only to discover she was actually aboard a floating hospital (the USS Comfort) and she was still in Haiti. He father could not afford the fare to pick her up so a rescue worker took her to her father instead. As she left the ship she beheld the destruction of her country, her city and her home. She found out her sister and mom both died in the earthquake. She reportedly didn’t remember anything at all about the earthquake. The sequence ended with this young girl, a child, sitting on a stool clutching a bag of belongings. I imagine she was trying to make sense of it all. There was just so much for her to take in at once.

Then I flipped back to the coverage of the Olympics. The marching around was all but over. The team from the country of Georgia sported black arm bands in honor of the athlete who died (yes, died) in training practice on the luge just hours earlier that same day. He was traveling almost 150 kms/hour on the luge when he wrecked and suffered fatal injuries. But, the games must go on, right? I can’t imagine how the remaining athletes from this country feel right about now.

Anyway, on with the story. I didn’t see the entire event, but just before the games officially opened there was a performance art show which, I must say, was pretty impressive. The gist of it was about the beauty and diversity of Canada, the landscapes, the various cultures, our penchant for down playing our successes and our tendencies to always say please, thank-you and you are welcome. Well, obviously that part impressed me and I wondered if maybe I was too harsh in declaring that the Olympics should be cancelled. Maybe, but I doubt it.

Back to CNN. This time around Cooper was covering an event where the surviving Haitians had gathered in front of the Presidential Palace. There were hundreds of Haitians there. Thousands of Haitians, probably. They had gathered to recognize and mourn the loss of loved ones and they had also gathered to sing and worship and lift their voices as though they were declaring their presence and faith in the face of the devastation that surrounded them. They were making a joyful noise. There was hope in their song and hope on their faces.

Back to the Olympics. Again I saw hope as people watched the artistic performance. From moment to moment drapes and sheets of some otherworldly material were transformed into fields of unending wheat or high peaked mountain ranges. It was beautiful to behold on television and most likely it was breathtaking to witness first hand.

I began to tally it all up in my mind. I saw hope in Haiti and hope in Vancouver. It seemed like the whole world was feeling a little hopeful within the last 24 hours starting with the poorest and most troubled and finishing with the most fortunate and privileged. It was a common thread. One that I liked. I had seen this kind of thing before. I saw it when Barak Obama was elected. Everybody was happy that day. Well, mostly everyone.

I think there is a lesson I need to learn in all of this. On the one hand, we need to celebrate our life here on this amazing planet and on the other hand, if we don’t help the person next to us when they are in need, then eventually hope is lost and there is nothing to celebrate. It seems to me there could and should be a natural sequence happening here. Help those in need first and celebrate second. It could work, couldn’t it? But it doesn’t work that way. It never has and probably never will.

The endings of these two stories are very different, if my imagination serves me correctly. Today the athletes probably woke up to a healthy meal and a bright and sunny future. They have worked hard to gain such an achievement as being a part of the Olympics, I suppose, and they will be catered to because of their achievements. Is there anything wrong with that? I don’t know. Probably not.

In Haiti however, Monley and the young girl who lost her mom and sister woke up to a grumbling belly, you can be sure, and a future that seems anything but bright and sunny. I know for certain they don’t deserve that. Nobody does.

I don’t know why I am so doggedly comparing the Olympics to the crisis in Haiti, but that is where my mind goes lately. Maybe it is my own personal need to sort this stuff out. Maybe I just relish the idea of pointing out the obvious. Or maybe I am just hopeful that things will balance out somewhere along the line.

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Cancel the Olympics

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by Jody Coughlin

How backwards can the human race be? Seriously? I was watching the Weather Network last night (riveting, I know) and there was a little news blurb on it about the Olympics and yes, the Winter Olympics coming to Vancouver is a glorious thing. There is much to celebrate. Spring rain falls on the hopeful hearts of the beloved sportsmen. Canada unites in triumphant athletic leadership… Yeah. Awesome.

But do you know what I think of when I see this stuff on television? First of all, the new design of the torch perplexes me. It looks (to me anyway) like a missing part from an airplane. I don’t know where the design came from and yes, I am too lazy to research it (so don’t even go there with me all you Olympic aficionados).

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Secondly, I think to myself that these Winter games and the subsequent millions of dollars investors and advertisers throw at them remind me of a playground. On this playground in my mind I see all the rich kids, all the jocks and all the cheerleaders (not to stereotype-but come on) huddled around what could only be called a buffet table. There is lots to eat and lots to drink and plenty of mutual admiration all around. It’s so perfect it could make you puke.

Then, in my mind’s pretty blue eye, on the other side of the playground, I see the kids who came to school with no lunch money. I see the kids that had the shit kicked out of them and then had their lunch money stolen and I also see the kids who brought along a baggie of peanut butter and crackers and a sad, shriveled up apple. I see oblivion on the behalf of the kids at the buffet table. I see utter, basic human needs going unmet on behalf of the poor kids with nothing.

In my mind it is the Olympics versus the earthquake tragedy in Haiti. It is the babies being born in sweltering heat under the tent roofs of a makeshift neonatal unit. I see the look in the eyes of the mothers as they wilt in what must surely be exhaustion and absolute fear and despair next to their babies makeshift cribs. In my heart I weigh these images that have been broadcast on almost all major news channels by now against the warm and fuzzy heralding of the sportsmen’s wet dream otherwise known as the Olympics. I see these things and I am utterly appalled.

I know that the world (and all the fun therein) doesn’t stop because there is a need in some foreign country somewhere. I realize this particular bit of writing is the most depressing thing anyone has probably read in a few days. So what? I don’t care. I am depressed. I am depressed that I live in a world where frivolities flourish amid tragedy. I am depressed that the Olympics take precedence over the rebuilding of a hospital in a disaster ridden nation. It brings me way low down when a stadium is built (and maybe even rebuilt) to suit the aesthetic appeal of ceremonial bullshit instead of a school.

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Maybe I am too harsh, but I fail to see where it matters that somebody can perform something faster or more deftly than anyone else in the world when there is an entire nation of orphans needing a home. I’m sorry Olympians. I know you’ve been training your asses off, but in terms of checks and balances it makes no sense to me. Cancel the Olympics. Rebuild Haiti.

Christmas 2009: A Narrative

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by Jody Coughlin

Christmas was never an easy time for me as a kid. I missed a Dad I never knew; I constantly fought against the devilish bile of jealousy and doubt as I compared the amount of gifts I received in comparison to my sisters; I dreaded going back to school after the holiday break. Worse still, my mother was always stressed to the absolute maximum at this time of year and every now and then she would do something quite whacky to make Christmas all the more horrifically memorable.

Case in point: one year she took an axe to the stump of our Christmas tree to make it fit in the tree stand, which would have been perfectly normal except that she hacked away at it in the middle of the living room. I distinctly remember vacuuming wood chips from the carpet. I remember watching mom slice away at that tree with utter abandon…

This event and others like it, which are a little too painful to publicly recall are the things that would eventually denote the exact opposite meaning of the most wonderful time of year for me. What is the exact opposite of wonderful you ask? Awful. It’s awful.

It has taken me a full decade of having my own home to get my head around what I want Christmas to mean for me and my family. My husband has always had a great holiday spirit and has, over the years, looked upon me with a vague sense of concern mingled with something probably close to annoyance at my eccentricities around the holidays. With good reason. I remember one December day, years ago, I was sweeping the fir needles from the kitchen floor and in the middle of the task I went into a blind rage over nothing at all other than the fact that it was just Christmas time and I was having a reaction to it. A very negative reaction to it.

These days, things are much saner and calmer and I find I even look forward to the holidays. This year I actually took the time to really think about what I sincerely wanted for a gift which, I realize, is not the true meaning of Christmas and all that stuff, but I wanted to partake of the tradition anyway. In other words, I just wanted present. I did. It’s true.

I decided, ultimately, on a sewing machine. I conjured visions of myself designing scarves (my personal favorite accessory) and making quilts and other such things during the longs days of winter. Such a romantic notion. Such a stupid, stupid, stupid romantic notion… I mean, as if?

Well, Christmas day came, I unwrapped (you guessed it) a sewing machine. I took it out of the box, perused the instruction manual and then I put it back in the box, taped it up and returned it a few days later. One look at that manual and all the details therein and it was all over for me. My grand illusion of becoming a seamstress extraordinaire was indeed an illusion. I instantly remembered why. The only class I ever failed in school was sewing class. I had forgotten that fact somewhere along the line. It all came crashing down around me when I saw the word bobbin in big bold letters.

Yuck. Ew. Gross.

So, what initially seemed like an enormous bout of amnesia on my behalf, actually turned into an opportunity to rethink my ideal gift. To really get it right this time. At this point I decided what would really suit me, what would totally rock my world was not a sewing machine but a bag of insulation. That’s right. A bag of insultion. It would be my one big purchase. My main gift. The jackpot. I, at the time, was in the middle of renovating my tool shed into a painting studio and therefore a bag of insulation seemed as valuable to me as diamond earrings might be to normal girls. Naturally.

Wait. Stop right there… Hold on ladies. Don’t get jealous. Don’t glare at your significant others and demand to know why you didn’t get a bag of insulation for Christmas. There is always next year. Christmas is over. Let it go.

Okay, back to the story. Onward, my husband went into the building supply store, he threw the money down on the counter (I assume) and ordered the insulation. Once it was bought and paid for we were directed outside to the warehouse only to find out that they were completely out. Flat broke about it. At this point, in essence, I went home with a thirty-two dollar piece of paper (receipt). Yee-haw. Deck the halls with utter annoyance.

About a week later, after much deliberation about the state of my studio which is perfectly functional in the summer, but not-so-much in the winter, I decided it was time to bring my easel inside. I realized the smart thing to do would be to shut the studio down for the winter and regroup next spring. Forget the insulation. Forget the renos. Forget it all until Spring. I set my easel up in the kitchen and again, returned my big purchase (essentially, my receipt) which I never actually got in the first place. No big deal, but still, I wanted something to call my own by way of a Christmas gift. Call me crazy. They often do.

So the hamster wheel in my brain started spinning. I dug deep. I thought long and hard about it and I concluded what I really wanted for Christmas, in the end, was a few new canvases to paint on. This was my absolute final decision on the matter.

I knew my mom (also a painter) had a surplus of canvases, of all shapes and sizes, kicking around her house. So I phoned her up, offered her some money to take of couple of them off her hands, et voila! In the end, it seems, regardless of what I thought I wanted for Christmas what I actually got was something to paint on. Weird. Very weird. Weird because I liked it.

It also seems, deep down, I must have wanted those canvases because, in the end, all I really wanted to do during the holidays was paint a portrait of Viggo Mortensen, alluding to his character as he (it?) appeared in Lord of the Rings (you know, a kind of freeze frame and snap a picture and print it and paint it kind of thing) because I had the big idea to do so a while ago as a form of commentary of popular culture and the intriguing artist types who seem as out-there as I feel most of the time and yet make me so…well, you know… So. Something. Or something like that.

If I had just thought about it a little harder, I would have come to these conclusions earlier. It’s all so vaguely obvious to me now.

There is a moral and it is this: In the end, I have discovered, it is much more pleasurable to give than to receive, especially for us indecisive types. Lesson learned.

Thusly concludes my personal saga of Christmas 2009. The end.

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Top Ten Films a la Jody

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a look back at the 2000’s with Jody Coughlin

Compiling my top ten films for the last decade is no easy feat. My memory is dismal at best and I am usually once removed to the left of the thing I really love but have forgotten all about. Oh well, this is not going to change the world anyway so I suppose I just might as well give it a whirl and hope for the best.
Here I go. These are in no particular order and this rundown is not particularly cerebral.
1. Fight Club.

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I do not talk about Fight Club. Seriously, I don’t. I will say this-it is a disgruntled employee’s wet dream to show up at the office with a huge black eye and blood trickling out the nose and onto a very neatly pressed dress shirt. Oh yeah. Can ya feel it?
2. There Will Be Blood.

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If you have not seen this film, then you must. Go now. Go. See it. The score will give you ulcers, Daniel Day Lewis and his portrayal of an oil-boy pioneer will give you goose bumps. The thought of how much blood, sweat, tears and greed goes into the oil industry and the industry of religion (two entities that we are so ravenously hooked on) will give you an upset stomach. What more could you ask for out of a film?
3. The Others.

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This haunting ghost story leaves me feeling like I did when I was a kid and my sister stumbled upon a book about a girl who gets trapped inside her doll house. I don’t remember how the girl got there, I just know that it freaked the hell out of me. I couldn’t stop starring at it.
4. Lord of The Rings

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This could count as three but I am counting it as one. I liked all in general, The Return of the King in particular. If there is a God, and I believe there is, then I think he would be a lot like the portrayal of Gandalf in this film: wise, kind, a bit temperamental. I cannot make it through these films without tearing up at least a dozen times. Epic.
5. Inglourious Basterds

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I keep spelling the title of this film correctly which means I am spelling it incorrectly which almost gives me an aneurism. I will say this, I am glad to be alive at a time in the history of our planet where it is perfectly acceptable to watch, with pleasure, the demise of the Nazis. Nobody does it like Tarantino. I wanted to stand up and clap at the end of this film, but my husband embarrasses easily so I just let the glory of the moment wash over me like a warm bath in chocolate money.
6. Frida

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Painter. Woman. Strong. Couragous. Enough said.
7. Bridget Jone’s Diary (One and Two)

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First of all, let’s just say I can relate to a blond, chesty journalist who is “just a little bit fat” and who also seems to have a genuine talent for screwing (things up). Also, the scene where the two boys, vying for her attention and settling an old score, fight (Colin Firth and Hugh Grant) out in the street as the song It’s Raining Men chimes in-well, that scene makes me almost pee my pants. Oh, the hilarity! I think Hugh Grant would be nothing without the hair. When his hair is all wet and mashed up in the sequel, he looses a bit of that British bad boy charm. It’s all about Hugh’s hair when it comes to Hugh.

8. Gangs of New York

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This is one of those films that I like to watch once a year or so. Daniel Day Lewis is, again, brilliant in this film. Raw and gritty. Dirty and a wee bit frightening. This film fascinates me on so many levels. I love to think about the inner workings and the underbelly of such a grand city as New York is and this film feeds those curiosities in me. I love it.
9. Snatch

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If I knew how to type out garbled Irish slang, that is exactly how I would write this next bit, but I don’t. In fact, I have watched this film several times to try and decipher exactly what Brad Pitt’s character is saying-to no avail. No matter. This movie is fast paced and interwoven and amusing. The dry British come-backs thrill me. The speech the creepy old guy gives about why he owns a pig farm is both frightening and utterly disgusting in one fell swoop. My kind of movie.
10. Where the Wild Things Are

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This film was amazing and alive and real in so many ways. The thing I took away from it was that kids do not-I mean do NOT-understand why adults gets so worked up and pissed off and grumpy and argumentative and depressed. I took from this film the understanding that the world of adults, to some children, is as frightening and mysterious as any monster-world. If we could remember that the next time we feel compelled to engage in a petty argument in front of our kids (speaking to myself here now) then it would be a different world. I have been trying to remember the impression this film gave me when I feel a disagreement coming on and then I stop myself and I walk away. There is something about this movie that seems classic even though it is quite new. I am a fan. For sure.

Shut Yourself Up

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by Jody Coughlin

The sparrow of humility in the hand of a painter is worth more than any flock of honking geese flying over head.

The sparrow of humility in the hand of a painter is worth more than any flock of honking geese flying over head.

I’ve been racking my brain, attempting to forage for some kind of dating advice for you all you gents out there. I-as they say-got nothin’. My tastes border on the absurd and unconventional at the best of times. I think Ted Danson in the most magnificent new HBO series Bored to Death is hot as hell. In his own way, of course. Then again, the cute little writer guy on the same show certainly holds his own in the hot department…and now that you mention it-the illustrator has a certain je ne sais quoi…

Ok. Wait. I have a crush on most guys. I am a true lover of men, not in terms of promiscuity, rather in terms of admiration. So, gentleman, just keep doing what you are doing and I will quietly (or not) observe from some distant corner somewhere. I can’t help myself, let alone all your lady friends out there. Enough said.

In other news…

It is time to get back to the world of all that is artistic (much to the relief of the editors of this site, I am sure). I am more or less a stay-at-home mom these days and have been for most of the time that I have been a parent, minus a stint here or there. I, at the moment, am not earning a steady paycheck. What I do is rely on the sales of my artwork and my writing and that wonderful little element in my life called husband. Without him, I would be the very definition of a starving artist. With him? I have lots to eat. Thankfully.

I, however, am the type of gal who gets a real kick out of earning my own quid so eventually, I will go back to work full time, when my daughter is a little older. Or, maybe, just maybe, within a few years I will be able to make a full time living selling my art and my writing on a regular basis (oh, to sleep perchance to dream). Actually, this is my dream, my goal. If it all falls through, and it may, I’ll probably end up at a call centre somewhere.

One thing I have been focusing on lately, is marketing. I have heard it said that a good artist should not necessarily study art, rather a good dose of business education is more important because, after all, selling what you make is a form of entrepreneurship. Artists must know how to market themselves. It is within this category in the life of an artist that I fall flat. Marketing myself makes me nauseous. I try it, but I never feel like I am much good at it.

In these modern times, we are rather lucky. Gone are the days where we have to sit in front of a television while commercial after commercial after commercial blasts its filthy face into our existence. Talk about offensive? The stuff written in Dear Asshole is risqué, for sure-but nobody is forcing anybody to read it. I remember when I was a kid though, fully immersed in an episode of Voltron and then some stupid commercial about some stupendous laundry detergent ripped me out of my animated reverie (I had a huge crush on the guy with the white hair in that show… What?!). Now that, my friends, is offensive. The commercial, not the crush. So, lest I come across as my own pathetic attempt at commercialism, I abhor the art of the self-promotion.

And then there are the types…Oh, we all know them. Probably by name if we are honest. You know what I am talking about, here. The type of people that incessantly talk about themselves and how spectacular what they are making/doing is compared to the rest of the blasé masses. There are artists out there that are so in your face about how special they are that it makes me (at least) want to literally vomit in the worst possible way. Am I like that? I sincerely hope not (if you see me getting mighty, if you see me getting high, knock me down. I’m not bigger than life).

These in your face types remind me of a guy I dated briefly in high school. Well, I was in high school, he (ahem) was not. When I first met this guy he did nothing but talk, talk, talk about his prowess with the ladies. I, being recently jilted by my boyfriend at the time, decided this guy might have something I needed. Well, as it turned out, all that talking covered up a few facts. For one, the guy lied like an oriental rug on an overdose of valium and two, his prowess was about as enigmatic as a box of kleenex. I was naive at the time, but I did learn this: those that talk the most about who and what they are, usually, aren’t much at all in the end and this guy was an idiot.

What self-admiration and swagger does is alienate people. At first, out of sincere curiosity, folks might be won over by this particular brand of charm, sure. In the end, when artists constantly talk about their process and what it all means to present day society and yada yada, I think it ends up alienating people. If the art cannot speak for itself, then it’s time to head back to the drawing board. A simple artist’s statement is all anyone ever really wants or needs in the end.

I worry the most about the fledgling artist/writer/musician who maybe just attempted their first serious piece. In the face of so much bluster, their courage may fall dead in its tracks. Nothing is as daunting as trying to make your mark as an artist in the shadow of some other artist who is determined to stay in the limelight come hell or high water. It should not be this way. Ultimately, this kind of behavior ends up killing more art than it generates and if that is the case then we all lose in the end.

On the flip side of this, I’ve met artists who have so much talent that it makes me want to cry in the best possible way, but when the gallery doors are closed or the stage lights are off, you would never know it. Some of the most humble people in the world would knock your socks off in the ability department. I am not too sure where I fit in in all of this, somewhere comfortably close to the humble side of things, I hope. Art should not be an elitist side-show. It should be completely accessible. Come one, come all.

As for marketing. Is it a necessary evil? Unfortunately, yes. It is. Everybody and their dog seems to being doing it these days simply because we can. A Facebook account is free, a blog is free, selling your work on various commerce sites like Etsy (for example) costs next to nothing. So, why not market yourself? There is a way to do it and then there is a way to do it, though. I say go ahead, give it your best shot. We are all very small fish swimming in a vast ocean. Why should the advertising giants have all the fun? All I am saying is, be careful. There are a lot of seedling, baby artists out there with just as much talent as you (and me). Talk about your art, sure. But gently and with a dose of humility and kindness. Any truly successful artist has worked extremely hard to get where they are today and those are the ones that nary utter a sound. As for the bragger types? Move out of the limelight you self-inflating arses. Let the rest of the world catch a ray or two for a change. Wait a minute… That was mean wasn’t it? Yup. Truth hurts. I can’t help it. That is how I feel.

Have a Sexy Winter

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(Sorry, gentlemen, this one is for the ladies.)

It has been brought to my attention as of late, that when the winter months breeze through, the fairer sex begins to feel somewhat less desirable to their beloved counterparts as the bikinis and the summer dresses give way to parkas and toques, flannel pyjamas and the like. What is a gal to do? How can a snow bunny maintain her sex appeal beneath all the layers? It’s easy girls. It’s all about thinking outside the ice box, or the long-johns, in this case.

I, personally, don’t think ladies should ever, under any circumstance, sacrifice personal comfort (and in some cases, safety) in order to attract a man. Far better for the lady in question to use her head and not her-um-boobs, to get the guy, to keep the guy and to live happily ever after with the guy. But, that is just me. Fans of the Brazilian bikini wax or the breast implants? If that is the way you choose to roll, I salute you.

At the risk of giving away a little too much information about my au- natural self to all you readers out there, lets take a look at something a little more north of the border. Let’s talk about your brain and how you can use it to make that man of yours happy and healthy during the winter months, even under that down-filled, puff-ball snowsuit.

It is no secret that the way to a man’s heart is through his stomach. I have never really tested this theory, but I do know that my husband (yup, I am married and have been for eight glorious years now) seems rather delighted when I cook up a good meal, which is not an everyday occurrence. I would be lying to you if I said it was.

One thing I do know though, is that on a cold December evening, nothing seems to put a smile on his face like a piping-hot helping of some freshly made apple crumble. It’s easy. All you do is slice some apples, mix in a little brown and white sugar, some oatmeal and cinnamon and a bit of flour, layer the mix on top of the apples and bake it at about 350 degrees for a half an hour or so and voila! Not only have you thrown a little extra heat around the room from running the oven for a while, you have filled the air with the sweet smell of freshly baked apples kissed with a hint of cinnamon.

What does this mean exactly? It means that your husband/boyfriend is all of a sudden overcome with the tantalizing scent of freshly baked goods, any man’s (or woman’s for that matter) weakness. His mind will become so distracted, overcome in an olfactory sense of the word, that they will be lost in a sea of confectionary bliss despite the cold that lurks just outside the kitchen door.

They will be day dreaming about cheery holiday get-togethers and what kind if Christmas tree might look good in the living room and suddenly, the focus is off the fact that you are wearing leisure pants, an old sweat shirt with kittens on it and a pair of socks so fluffy they give you an extra inch in height. No, that will not be the focus. The focus will be the food, the smell and the final pinnacle of flavour when the loved one in question finally eats the thing you just made.

Milk the attention for all it is worth, ladies. Splash a little four across your brow and wistfully wipe it away with the back of your hand upon the first bite. Sigh just a little, but smile. You will be a hero. Hijinks will most likely ensue in a very sexy way. Throw in a glass of red whine (or a beer) and you are golden. I suspect an event like this can buy you at least a week’s worth of attention from that special someone. Or at least a week’s worth of distraction…

Now it is time to think about attire. Yes. There is nothing sexy at all about a heavy winter coat, it’s true. But what a girl needs to exude here is a little confidence about her choice to make her personal comfort and health her first priority. As drab as a parka can be, there is also nothing sexy about a mini skirt in the dead of winter when the girl wearing that skirt is three shades of blue and shaking like the last dried up leaf that still clings to the maple tree in your grandfathers yard now is there? Of course not!

An ounce of confidence in your personal choice to dress appropriately in the cold weather is every bit as much an aphrodisiac as an entire plate full of oysters (which, they say, are powerful aphrodisiacs-but don’t ask me how sea-snots are sexy, I just don’t know). Your man will soon perceive you as the conquest not yet conquered, will he not? We all know men love the unattainable and nothing says unattainable like a coat zipped up to your eye- balls as long as your sporting that come hither look when you peak out over the fur trim. Am I right? Of course I am right.

Let’s not forget that winter is a perfect time to channel our inner librarian. Every man has a weakness for the sexy, booky type. Here I would suggest, to those of you who do not wear glasses, to head on down to your local Dollarama and pick up a pair of low strength reading glasses. On your way home stop by your local library and pick up a novel or two. Here is where you can promote a little self-care as well as spice things up at home. Are you feeling cerebral? Then ask the librarian to help you pick out something deep and powerful. Are you feeling a little dull in the libido? Romance novels abound. Pick three or four of them up and take them home. I guarantee they will perk your appetite even if they lack substance in literary terms.

Maybe you would like to learn something new like painting or photography. Pick up a do-it-yourself guide to a new hobby like these and impress that honey of yours with your acumen. Here is the key to any of these suggestions; wear your hair in a nice little up-do and tuck a pencil behind your ear while sporting the new spectacles as you read. That man of yours will be intrigued, I just know it. When things get a little steamy, reach up and undo the hair clip and let your hair cascade down around your shoulders. He’ll be putty in your learned hands. Those of you with short hair, I suggest maybe wrapping a shawl or a nice scarf around your shoulders to hide a rather low-cut blouse only to shrug it off at just about the same time as the hair would typically come down.

You see, the options are truly endless. Who said sex-appeal had to go hand in hand with revealing clothing typically worn in the warmer months? I say put the super-skirts away and give the man I your life a little something to be desired. Let their imagination run wild by not giving too much away. Winter is a perfect time to get creative.

In the end, though, if your relationship is unable to withstand the pressures that come with the typical Canadian lifestyle otherwise known as cold weather and the attire that comes with it, well, there may be a deeper problem. Let’s face it, ladies…We are all beautiful and it is not, let me stress should not, be about the clothes. It’s what’s on the inside that counts. Yeah, I know, you’ve heard that a million times before. That is simply because it is true. You are beautiful. You are awesome. Never forget it. Zip up your coat, baby. It’s cold outside.

How To Draw Toast (or not).

jody by Jody Coughlin

You are never too old to learn. It’s really true. What is missing from the phrase is the part about it being easier said (to learn when you get older) than done. When we are young, our minds are as new as a garden waiting to be planted. There is nothing there to occupy our thoughts other than the basics and then our interpretation of those basics. That is not too say children are simple minded. Rather, they are like a chest full of golden coins not yet spent.

As we age, we take in more information, we process it and store it and compartmentalize it and also, it is necessary to take into account the substance intake that will invariably (for good or bad) alter our brain chemistry and mix things up within the conscious and unconscious mind. Whether it is an aspirin or the fattest joint you have ever seen in your life, what goes in will definitely effect what comes out. To a degree. I think.

There is nothing more daunting than trying something new. I know this to be true from experience and also from observing this in others. The first day at a new job is a prime example of the case in point. You arrive at the office, you find your new desk, you strike up your computer. By this time (about five minutes into Monday morning) your nerves are shot. You just keep moving ahead anyway.

If you are lucky, somebody next to you will help you out a little. If you are unlucky, your boss will bark a question at you in front of an entire room of onlookers that you may or may not be able to answer. But, you pick your way through the day. You just do it because you need to. You want that pay check at the end of the week so, for the most part, you just do it.

It is not so with art of whatever kind. There is, especially at first, no incentive, no immediate payoff, save one. That one is to simply make yourself happy. That is the only immediate payoff to sitting down at your kitchen table to try out your new set of water colors or the little box of sketch pencils you bought yourself at the dollar store.

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Drawing your first-ever rendition of the half-eaten piece of toast that is sitting on a plate on your kitchen table, for anybody who has never drawn anything seriously in their life, will be a daunting task. Sure, it sounds simple. But, try it. It’s not simple at all. Therein lies the eye of the needle, educationally speaking.

That little nuance of difference in your mind between something sounding easy to the ear but translating down to be very complicated to the mind is where most artists seem to fall on the path toward their personal artistic triumphs. It’s a left brain, right brain kind of thing. I think.

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I have encountered people who say they cannot draw after one ridiculous, wet-rag attempt at a really stupid looking happy face (for example), rife with expression that reflects the beleaguered attempt from their maker. It’s sad. It’s pathetic. I have to hold my hands behind my back to stop from slapping the person who made such a sorry little face. I don’t mean to be mean (at least I don‘t think I do) but who ever said drawing or painting was easy? That you could do anything of real significance the first time out?

Is playing the piano easy? For some, it probably is. But for most of us, it seems complicated. It has to be broken down into bits of information. It has to be taken one small step at a time. It is the same when you draw. Here. Let me show you.

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Take the above drawings of a piece of toast (the remains of my son’s breakfast). They are not the best drawings of a piece of toast in the entire world. Indeed, they are my first (ever) drawings of a piece of toast. I, just now, drew toast for the first time. What did I notice? I noticed that a drawing of toast requires a lot of necessary detail in order to make it look real. I am not so sure I captured all that detail in these drawings but now, I know, the next time I want to draw realistic looking toast, or impressionistic looking toast, I need to add a few details like crumbs around the edges and lots of differently sized holes throughout the bread. Those details are what toast is about. That is what I observed. I learned that toast is full of crumbs and numerous holes and it is actually a very complicated little thing. In summation: Observe. Recreate. Observe. Recreate. Observe. Create. Create. Observe. See. Recreate. Create…Catch the groove. Get going.

You can do it, too. Really. You can. I think.

People of the World, Relax!

prodancer_2 by Jody Coughlin

So, was my first installment dramatic enough for you? I hope so. Today, however, we must move on.

It truly seemed, once upon a time, that in order to paint, write or be creative in general, I had to hurt myself or someone else to do it. Lately though, the times are a changin’ in this girl’s life and changing in a very big way.

I am dancing to the beat of a different drum, these days. I have put down the knife, as it where, and picked up a good book; Tom Robbins for nemesis, Anaïs Nin for pain. I find myself in a strange place, a place where I seek the approval of only myself, offering an apologetic shrug to anybody who might expect more. They won’t be getting it…

I decided a while ago it was time to get healthy, to wipe the slate clean. All that snapping, darting, hurting and birthing leaves a girl feeling like she’s missing something on the internal plain; on the inside.

There has been far too much give and not enough take in my life. The well of my soul had run dry, dry as desert with no hope of rain. It was only when I went to take a drink and there was no drink to be had that I realized things had to change.

The time had arrived for a refill. This time around I came to the conclusion that the precious waters of my particular well shall from henceforth be dispersed a little more conservatively and a lot less destructively. More importantly, the time had come for me to simply relax.

I suppose creative types, at one time or another, fill the void with lots of interesting things, things that cause the mind to peel back layers of reality like the skin off a grape. Drugs, sex, booze…whatever your poison, it’s all the same trick in different hats. And that’s all very well and good, if you enjoy technicolor flashbacks and three-day hangovers. I don’t happen to like either of those negative side-effects.

My drug of choice has always been the exquisitely painful torrent of love. Or hate. Or any other similar emotional dregs. As long as it was painful, it did the trick. It generated plenty of inspiration to slash some paint across a canvas. I have been in love at least 26 times in the last 31 years, to illustrate my point. The continuum of an initial hurt was carried on via my penchant (my addiction) to emotional turmoil.

The thing is, I know about as much about being an artist as a monkey knows about being a burlesque on Broadway. The motions are there, for sure. Maybe that monkey could even pull off a fancy little ass-shaking dance now and then, maybe that dance could fool one or two folks who have had too much of the aforementioned substance intake. Who knows?

I don’t know where the world-class artists get their start, perhaps within the halls of academia. Perhaps from a master painter who has blazed a gloriously artistic trail and is now accepting minions. As for me, I started painting because I felt like I missed the boat a long time ago when all my friends where up and at’em, heading off to college or whatever escape from the everyday small town bullshit (pardon the farm reference) they might have desired.

I should have been on that boat too. But I wasn’t. I was back at port, so mired in the figurative muck of one form or another that I couldn’t seem to make it to the dock, let alone actually get on the damn boat.

I will tell you, feeling like you’ve missed out when you’re just a kid is the worst feeling in the world. It really is. It skews your view. It alters your sense of possibilty. I faced that type of despair daily, hourly and by the minute. For years.

Not one to be deterred I used that pain caused by life’s events (which I won’t describe here) to push myself to overcome whatever boundary it seemed to represent. So far, every single wall has fallen down. Flat.

Determination is a wonderful thing. It really is.

Listen, folks…Let me take the mystery out of art for you once and for all. The way I see it, we are all created beings, therefore it stands to reason that we are all creative beings as well. It is a gift, for sure and I think everybody has it in them. The only difference between Van Gogh and you may very well be the fact that he was not afraid to try. I am not afraid to try, either. I get up everyday and think about what I can create. Then, I simply try. It is that easy. I do it because it is what I want to do. To hell with anyone who says I can’t.

I have learned that shit happens and the success of your life and your happiness depends on what you do with the pain it causes. Are you going to use it or are you going to let it overtake you? I decided to use it. I used it to teach myself how to paint, how to write, to draw and how to do a million different things. Eventually a formula unfolded. My options became endless once I discovered my own personal formula required to teach myself the things I wanted to know. Find your formula and then apply it to your life. Doors will open and the world takes on a whole new meaning.

I wanted to prove to myself when I started to paint six years ago that there are other boats, canoes, rafts and various other forms of nautical travel to catch and guess what? It worked. It continues to work. I am just a lot happier doing it now. Tearing myself to pieces, emotionally speaking, has lost its charms and the nemesis, though useful for a while, has been put to rest.

Use pain to overcome even while it holds you back and then, let it go and stop taking yourself and art so seriously. As Tom Robbins so easily puts it; “Peeple of zee wurl, relax.”

Wiser words have never been spoken.